Aku Pasti Kembali

Mata merah itu menatapku sedih
berupaya meyakinkanku untuk boleh pergi meski tak sampai hati

aku tahu,
tak rela untukmu melepasku
berpisah dengan jutaan rindu yang siap merengkuh tawamu

kau masih di sana, duduk termenung
dengan airmata atas rasa banggamu
kau peluk dan ciumiku

aku tahu,
berat bagimu mengingatku jauh darimu
tapi hanya untukku kau relakan itu

aku pasti kembali,
dengan berjuta salam hangat akan kusapa dirimu
dengan berjuta rasa bangga akan kuceritakan dunia padamu

apalah arti berjuta itu,
jika aku masih memiliki dirimu yang siap memberiku hati
cinta dan ketulusan yang siap meyakinkanku untuk selalu bermimpi
hingga akhirnya kelak bukan hanya sekedar mimpi

apalah arti berjuta itu,
jika aku masih memiliki dirimu dan seluruh kebahagiaanmu

aku berdiri di sini untuk membuatmu tersenyum bangga padaku
dan ingatlah...
apapun yang terjadi aku akan kembali padamu, selalu

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NB : Dedicated to my mom, aku pasti kembali kok, Ma. Dengan sikap yang sama seperti dulu dengan ilmu yang selangkah lebih maju :)

poem by Dita Oktamaya

She's More Than A Sister

Now let me to introduce person tht close with me by personal here we come...


Name : Utami Nurul Fadilah
Date Birth : June, 16 1988
Position in my life : Sister/soulmate/Breaker my stuff

well, she is my sister i dunno wht must i'm telling to u about her... =.="
she's studying in university now, her dream is become good pharmasist and wedding in youth age..become good mother and have family happly ever after!!
when was kid, she always keep nagging and yelling at me...as the youngest i just can be crybaby! and up to now, i think she loves to make me cries... =.="

she always do as a boss, ask me to put it on here, on there, do it, do tht..
ouwhh..she bother me alot!!

but u know wht, nowadays she makes confess about our childhood,
a long time ago, my cousin had marriage with her wife in one city called Madiun
i didn't come there coz my school (i'm still in kindegarten tht time) has one performance tht put me as the dancer, so tht time is my first time when me and her separated...
she told me tht she can't stop cried when she arrive in Madiun, she cried loud behind the bus's window...she cried loud and close her eyes to make ppl around didn't relize tht she's cried...
she told me tht she was cried coz of me, she never separated with me and she missed me a lot there..
she thinked tht i must be feel alone in jakarta without her..
when i heard about it nowadays, i just laughed!
hahaha..how pity is she!!!
then she is laughed until die..
hehehehhehe...

she told me, even we're always fight and do something crazy tht annoyed, but we're really close..
and i think ya, she's right...
all the thing in my life she always know..
she knows all of my secret!!~~~
hehehe..and only her know me as my self...^^


u know wht, when i lost my friends, she cried louder than me..
she told me she feel so angry with my friend tht talked behind me and left me as a dump!

u know, budd..
sometimes life get so hard, people come and go, left behind...i ever feel like tht when my close friends leave me because i didn't match with their lifestyle..
diverge sometimes so cruel, isn't it??
they talked behind me as if i'm their envy...yaaa...diverge is cruel, but disguise friend is more cruel!

well, forget it..i think i already forgive they all..even hurts still fill my heart...

ok then, still about my sister..yahh..u know tht...
she's kinda silly and we always do something silly until now...

(Sister and me)

(sister and me)

silly rite??
thts we are..silly siblings!!~~
heheheh..


well, dude..
life is sometimes get so hard and situation is get so cruel
but i know, how hard and cruel life is, she won't leave me alone...coz she's number one for me and i'm number one for her...

thts what sister is for, she's more than sister and it's more than sisterhood.

by Dita Oktamaya

My Little Girls, My Little Sisters

Hi there!!!~~~~
long time no see!
nope, it just few days we didn't meet..
hehehehe....

i dunno wht must i telling to u all, coz my day just as usual..
TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!~~~
coz i faced final exam and today is my last day face the final exam!
know that i'm starting fed up with my activities, pathetic... =.="
i need something new~~~~~!!!!!

then forget it!
hahahahahah....
well, as u know... i'm the youngest in my family, i don't have any little sister or brother, so its make me feel alone even i'm happy to be the youngest...^^

so, maybe my lonliness tht no have any little sister or brother, increasing, since my big sister live in boarding house coz of studying!
in home everyday when went back from school, i'm just doing assignment and homework, sleep, eat, praying to my God tht must taking 5 times per a day, thats all...
sometimes i writting novel and some poem, unfortunely not all of u can read all of my novel and poem, coz it in indonesian, but maybe i can translate it later (with broken english, for sure) if u want^^

anyway, may be loneliness bring me to cyber world tht having a lot of people using it, u can connected with other people around the world, and coz of it, i got my little sisters and even new family there, without my realize they all come from place tht being my utopia (dream place).

well, let me to introduce my two lovely little sisters in cyber world(i never feel they are my cyber little sister coz they are real for me and someday i always hope i can meet with them)
here we go :


above is picture of my first lovely little sister, named Hong Young Gi, born at 1992, she come from South of korea, she lives in Gwang-ju...she's really cute!hahaha...well, sstt...don't tell it to her, coz she always shy...hahaha..she's smart girl, she always curious about something then she asking me, and i'll try to answering wht the thing tht become her question...^^
we meet in one site by chance, she gave me her email tht we can chat easly...i'm happy when first time i'm chat with her and she also like tht, she's open minded and she trust me,
she also allergi with flower, in spring season she must be bring her handkerchief and her mask, to make her not too much to sneeze!

i love her so much!

i always waiting time tht can chat with her all day, we talk about anything, she loves cat!
and she also introducing me with her little sister and big sister, they all 3 siblings...
her little sister is name Hong Hee Jung and her big sister is name Hong Ji Young, they all really friendly even ji young onni ever jeolous at me coz notice tht i had steal her little sister (Young Gi and Hee Jung) from her, i explain everything to her and she say thanks coz had take care of her sisters when she busy with her bussiness...thts make me love they all and including they parents too^^
they are my new family from overseas^^
but now, i guess, Young Gi is busy with her stuff, she can't often online in cyber world, so do i...
then we didn't talk for long time...I MISS HER BADLY!!!!!~~~
but i proud of her coz now she become a model..good job lovely...^^



above is picture of my second lovely little sister, named Ayumi Inoue born at 1993, she come from Japan, she lives in Yokohama near Tokyo..she's really friendly with all people ... i meet her also by chance, firstly we didn't talk for long time, but then she came and talk about everything with her, she makes new people tht new know her feel already knows her before, she treat all people really good...^^
she's member of cheerleader club in her school, she's really attractive and smart girl, look at her, she loves her bear doll, teddy bear...and she also loves her cat! But, her cat already passed away, she really sad coz of it, but i told her she should be out of sadness coz her cat will happy 'there' as long as she's happy...
she loves to praise me and make me fly, hahaha..i told her to do not praise me a lot, but she keep praising me...she also introduce me with her little brother, his name is Takara Inoue, she's the oldest in her family and she wanted big sister and she said she already found tht i am as her big sister...^^
she's really cute u know, and i love her so much...


that's short story about of my two lovely little sisters tht make me completely..i'm just such a lucky girl in this world tht found them in my life, tht always trying and hoping to meet them by person in real life...i dunno wht they feel to me but i know i love them a lot and as i can i wnt to protect them (even i know my height is less than their), everyone tht wnt to hurts them, please back off, coz i won't let u to hurts them...and i thankful to God coz i found u both!!~~
whatever it takes, i just want to be your best sister tht u ever have, let me to do my best..
I LOVE BOTH OF YOU MY LITTLE GIRLS, MY LITTLE SISTERS.

by Dita Oktamaya

Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday to Hong Hee Jung, Hong Young Gi's youngest sister.
Hope you growing up wisely... 생일 축하합니다...!!

Jakarta,
12-04-09
With love, Dita Oktamaya (Hong Ha Neul)

By Dita Oktamaya

Tunggu Aku di Gwangju-mu

Sambutan hangat dan obrolan renyah tiap kita bertemu
di situlah, di ruang santai kita
dimana cuma terdapat aku dan dirimu
dengan segala keluh yang membara akan aktivitas masing-masing

Kamu mempercayaiku, begitu katamu
dengan berjuta keinginanku untuk bertemu denganmu
rasa sayang itu tumbuh, kamu adikku
persahabatan yang begitu kental erat terasa

Kamu bermimpi tentang aku, tentang kehadiranku di rumahmu
dan ya, ku katakan itu akan terjadi
akan terjadi entah berapa tahun lagi
tapi pasti!

Kamu dengan segala aktivitasmu
membiarkan aku larut dengan duniaku, begitupun dirimu
aku akan mencarimu, sahabat penaku
dengan segala rasa memiliki kita, kita pasti bertemu

Tunggulah untuk beberapa saat lagi
dengan beberapa hal yang pernah kita bagi
aku akan menemukanmu

Tunggulah aku...
tunggu aku di Gwangju-mu

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NB : dedicated to Hong Young Gi, my closest cyberfriend from Gwangju, South Korea. Dunia maya itu nyata? Memang. Sangat nyata. Jangan pernah pergi dan menyerah, Sis. Kita akan bertemu dan bersama-sama mengunjungi Bali suatu hari nanti... aku yakin itu!

poem by Dita Oktamaya

Jakarta Hari Ini

Jakarta hari ini...
langit masih terlihat apa adanya, biru meski sedikit kelabu
kembali beralih, menatap foto kita saat itu

Jakarta hari ini...
dengan mengingat kebahagiaan yang kita miliki dulu
canda tawa dan gairah kehidupan masa kita
aku masih mengingatnya, jauh di lubuk hatiku

Jakarta hari ini...
lalu lintas selayaknya dahulu
mengingatkanku dengan perjalanan panjang yang pernah kita lewati
perjalanan yang indah, kemanakah?

Jakarta hari ini...
diam menjadi kegemaranku
kembali menatap langit Jakarta yang sedikit mendung setelah hujan
samakah langit yang kau lihat?

Jakarta hari ini...
menekuni kegemaran baruku sembari menghela napas perlahan
tertunduk meratap kenangan yang sempat hadir di benakku

Jakarta hari ini...
tidak pernah terasa sama, sejak kau tidak ada lagi di sini


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NB : dedicated to my grandparents, aku merindukan kalian... sungguh!

poem by Dita Oktamaya

"Apa kalian mengenalku?"

Ada yang bertanya padaku : "Apa kau lihat cinta?"
Aku menggeleng, aku tidak pernah bertemu dengannya

Ada yang bertanya padaku : "Apa kau pernah bersalaman dengan air?
Alisku tertaut, akan aneh rasanya jika itu terjadi

Ada yang bertanya padaku : "Apa kau pernah mengenggam angin?"
Aku tertawa, tidak pernah terlintas dibenakku untuk melakukan hal konyol itu

Mereka semua pergi dan aku terdiam
tinggal sendiri membuatku bertanya : "Apa mereka mengenalku?"

Kembali mereka dengan beribu ceria dari biasanya
menawarkan tawa dengan segenap penawar dalam duka

"Kau tidak melihat cinta?" Aku menggeleng

"Kau tidak bersalaman dengan air?" Aku menggeleng

"Kau tidak pernah menggenggam angin?" Aku menggeleng

mulai jenuh dengan pertanyaan mereka

"Apa kalian mengenalku?" aku balik bertanya, mereka tersenyum

"Tentu saja. Lebih dari yang kau bayangkan!" jawab mereka

"Dan segala ketidakmungkinan yang tidak pernah kau lakukan, kami akan melakukannya bersamamu."

Kali ini akulah yang tersenyum. Terima kasih, teman.

Poem by Dita Oktamaya

Me

Always!
Believe in my God
i'm not perfect in praying that need five times to do
But i know he always never tired to leads me so that i want to make my pray better

Always!
Finding hard to show what i'm feeling inside

Always!
Clumsly and instead being crazy

Always!
Laughing, kidding, and joking until you all wanna die
because of my joke and all the funny things that i tell is never imagine by you all

Always!
Spent time to read a book because i am such a books freak!

Always!
People said that i am imaginatif and dreamer
i'm one of a dreamer, so i don't need to angry with them

Always!
People said that i am seems like liar because never tell what i am feeling inside
but instead write some poem and novel about it
well, i show what i'm feeling inside by my own way, am i wrong??

Always!
make list and schedule about my activities
i'm not perfect and always do something wrong
so i make it because i want to all the things i have done and will do under my control!

Always!
Hope that do sincerely can give happiness to all people in my life

Always!
Searching for the meaning of life and aim in my life
even if all the people around me said : "It's too earlier to think about it, Dita!"

Always!
Never thinking about my problem in my life so deep
because i know the problem comes not just to think but to settle

Always!
I may be never tell that i am care about all the people in my life
but honestly deep inside my heart, i do

poem by Dita Oktamaya

Masih Kosong

Beranjak pergi menghadapi angan yang tak ingin berhenti untuk dimimpi

Membuka lembar demi lembar buku kehidupan yang terlihat usang

Dapat apa?

Semuanya hilang, siap berlalu

Kedua alis terpaut, bosan dan jenuh

Apa?

Tak lepas dari itu hati ini bergetar, kecewa

Peluh ini menghempaskan senyum melihat lembar demi lembar buku kehidupan itu

Selembar terbuka hingga lembar terakhir

sempat terpana karena semua terasa sia-sia

Dapat apa?

Buku itu tertutup kembali, sedikit menghela napas dan terdiam

Dapat apa? tidak ada

Masih kosong.

poem by Dita Oktamaya